Welcome to my life!

oh..u're not thinking tht I'm toking abt Simple Plan's song are u? Well, sort of related bah. I liked the lyrics of this song, so meaningful..really voice out alot of ppl's feelings when they are all downcasted.....haha...but today I donno wad to write le...hmm maybe starting frm morning, I woke up very early but sleep again then realised tht I'm almost late for my work! haha then when I went to work this morning, I saw TZ reading my blog...to TZ here: haha..don worry, I welcomed u to read my blog, I welcomed anyone to read my blog cos I was so scared tht no one would read my blog and it would become so lonely here, I pity my blog. haha, don worry, tht's wad blog was for, for ppl to voice out and to read it. Mine was not so personal blog as if it was, I wouldn't be letting others to see my blog and I'll put a password to it. Well, so TZ (sorry, just in case u don like ur name to be spelled out, I'll use ur initials) a BIG welcome to my blog, my life! hahaha....okok, sorry if I upset u in any way or another....
hmm...let's move on. Today morning, the network slowed down to almost network down...can't get to surf a page with ease...then keep giving me internal server error...holy s***! plus the second Sudoku tht I've installed after the first had expired had expired. And the quiz prob still donno how to solve yet, tried to change the for loop for the visibilty of the options for only two ans true or flase one to a if and else if loop. But it cannot even display the answers le! hmm...should I post it in the forum? maybe I'll try until cannot then I post bah....Keep on surfing the net for my idols news....hmmm...just went to search for ayumi news..she's going to release an album le...hmm..felt so bad towards her cos didn't feel as interested in her as b4 but I would still be glad if there were any news of her in the local newspaper...I would still consider her as my idol as she was the main reason why I took jap...though I'm not as enthu in learning jap as b4(maybe long time nv touch my jap le) but I like to make frenz with the jap students...mina totemo kawaii to omoshiroii desu ne! Hee...I would place my first idol to be Bernice liu...How I noticed her in the first place was through the TVB series Virtues of harmony which was her first show as a princess....damn cute la she..Initially I don like her cos she's too wilful but seeing how cute her smile was when she was with frankie lam...the sweetness..whoo! She paired up well with Frankie, they made a good couple, one handsome while the other pretty....haha....then I started to search for more VOH news then the more I surf on all the VOH news, the more I'm interested in making her as my idol as she's so funky and funny!....hmm..wad abt Ron ng? Well, I noticed ron when I saw a pic of Bernice and him together....I was wondering at tht time, whoever could tht hunk be..haha! Then I saw his name, the chinese name was wu zhuo xi....TVB actor eh? yah...but I wouldn't idolise him tht much as I only like his looks, but not so much of a character as I donno wat's he's like for he looked like a very rough and extreme cool guy, not funny at all...Hmm..if I were to choose a TVB actor tht would be funky and nice, I would choose Bosco wong first...in terms of looks and character, he won the title..Bobby ou yung also not bad, he's cute but not handsome...he looked like Garfield but funny...I like all funny ppl, Myolie wu together with Bosco, the rumoured couple can be so funny! And yesh, finally, Mediacorp was going to air some TVBI series though none of it had featured Bernice but at least got Ron and Myolie and the handsome cute guy tht looked like KC..Sammul Chan! Recently keep on listening to Raymond lam's song...(I donno the name of the song) this song was the Survivor's laws theme song...damn touching siah! Quite catchy, he has nice vocals..maybe he should become a singer...maybe he already was one? He's a good actor too...he looked decent and good. Haha..obsessed with TVB..yah right! Now is raining heavily outside and hence does dampened my spirit a little but smtimes, I would like this kind of weather if I'm very moody...hmmm..I think I've written enough, enough to make a few pages of a book le (books for toddlers only) hee hee hee, jya ashita ni kakimasu! I hope I can write my blog in a more livelier and funnier way!

I should have been sleeping like a log

Yesterday was Hari Raya Aidilfitri and as a result, was a holiday...hmm..totally locked myself up at home yesterday since I was so lazy to go out and too tired..coming my da yi ma....don feel like going anywhere and played PS2 at home loh...I finished almost all the games very sian so I went to play my bro's game, the "Prince of Persia"..wah, damn hard to play, I played the easy mode and yet I've died so many times!

I don think I'll play the normal mode le. hmm..not bad, the game abit like splinter cell cos produced frm the same company mah but this prince of persia included alot of logic and thinking tht set it apart frm splinter cell-pandora tmr...a good game after all. Hmmm...I felt so bad to let yukimi waited for my mail cos I haven't print out the photos yet, donno wad photos to give her....then til now lke 2 wks le still haven't sent to her!

haiz...bad fren I am...sorry yukimi...hopefully this wkend should be able to mailed it to u le..hmmm..my mum wanted to go to Vivocity leh..then I promised I'll take her there someday..wonder when this someday will be, hmm maybe this or nxt wk? I still haven't do my jap ws!!!!

Memories are meant to be kept, but some I'd rather not...

Ok, since I was so bored today and it keeps bugging me for a few yrs, it's time for me to let it go...I'm going to let my heart rest, after all the pain it had gone through...This is the first time I'm going to write it everything in my blog and trash those memories away here....

It had been yrs since I've had my last crush on KC. I think I've only liked two guys b4...all frm sec sch. The first started since I was in sec one. Haha..very early hor..I started my puberty faster mah...ok, this guy RZ was frm the other class, same age as me. At first I didn't get into acquaintance with him until I spotted him frm the other class after sch.

I was a very hyperactive gal in sec sch, more hyper in sec one and two, I could even played basketball wif those guys whom I'm not befriend wif and just thinking abt it now, I can't believe I'm tht bold...Indeed I've changed alot..maybe I've grown more matured and more sensible le. This RZ drives me crazy. I would stay back just for him almost everyday and I would smtimes secretly follow him to wherever he goes( but I gave up halfway cos he keeps on walking and nv stopped! haha, I don have tht patience though).

He was a very handsome guy and I think alot of girls just get to like him and had a crush on him too...At least he brightened up my days during my sec sch life for 3 and 1/2 yrs. So how come only for 3 and 1/2 yrs? Because, in the third yr, tht is sec 3, he was going frm bad to worse, he retained and his photo looked as if he was a drug addict...I don like guys who doesn't have the motivation to move on..and he failed since he retained..haha...of course, it's hard to forget just like tht, so it took me for almost half yrs to forget abt him and hehe searching for a new 'target'.
tht's how it sums up to 3 and 1/2 yrs.

So wad abt KC? haha..I think my first saw him when I was playing basketball wif him and his frenz..I'm super hyper mah..but I think tht was when I'm sec 2 bah..he was a bit plump and cute cos he looked fat yet his eyes were so big! At tht time, I just wanted to play bb and didn't even care who he was, but why did I rem this? It's becos I've commented on him saying tht his eyes were big!

And I still rem tht! haha..it wasn't until during sec 3 camp tht I get to be fond of him. He slimmed down becos of his CCA as a NCC cadet. During the sec 3 camp, he was in my grp, and haha, I at first didn't even noe how to pronounce his name! Our grp had some other ppl too for abt 6-8 maybe. We worked as a team and we played those adventure club would play..tht was to climb up high and walked on a single rope, absailing and flying fox all these kind of stuffs..It was damn fun for me, I failed my rock climbing for 3 times and one of the bitch in my grp(I truely hated her, I guess the others also don like her) said tht my butt was too heavy to climb..hmm..for the first time, I may have to agree wif her, too much fats!

Wow, KC climbed the rock climbing with no sweat man! He was swift and liked a monkey, agility so good! He was the best out there! I don really rem how I got to like him...he was very handome indeed, but I don really like him becos of his looks. I liked him more becos of his characteristics. His personality was good and he liked to help ppl. Maybe I'm attracted to him by this way. Haha..despite my ugly looks, he helped me alot, so much better than tht RZ. tht 3 or 5 days camp(I don rem) was great! not only because of the games were fun but also partly because of him.

I rem I even gave 'molested' him by giving him a massage on the shoulders. haha don get the wrong idea as in I was flirting with him..I don qualify for tht. I just like to give ppl a massage to show off my massage skills and because he's in front of me and we both were waiting our turns to play the game so in the meantime, I massaged him. Thinking of tht, I would blush, can't believe wad I did the past times. However, he was in the normal academic and I was in the express class, so I'll graduate b4 him and RZ too.

And since tht time, I've nv forget him til now...I've once got his friendster frm azzy..and tried to contacted him..I've got his email add(MSN) and tried to chat wif him. Even though noeing tht he had a gf, I just wanna tok to him...however, the first time I've chatted wif him was a bloody shit! Somehow, I could sensed tht he does not want to tok to me and he had changed...no longer the guy I knew..chat wif him like no life liddat..and in a fit and trying to forget him, I've deleted his contact frm my MSN and friendster once.

I thought I was going to forget abt him and I did lived well enough w/o him and successfully stopped thinking abt him and tot I've succeeded when he sent an email to me. Although tht email was of nothing but just to help those sick ppl kind of email, but man was I surprised to receive his email! And once again, weakling me succumbed to this stupid infatuation. I found myself missing him somehow and added him again to my contact in MSN and friendster. Oh, I hated myself...I chatted wif him again, this time at least he did not chat like half dead though I could sense tht he doesn't wanted me to chat wif him.

I rem when NYP had open house and I saw him walking in the dirsction of my way wif his frenz and I wif my frenz and azzy was whispering to me:"hey, tht's KC! Go and say hi!" However, I've decided to let him go...my heart does skipped a beat but I just walked past him..I don even think he noes who the hell I am and tht's why he felt like toking to a stranger on MSN and lack the ethusiasm to cont' chatting...so wad's the point of hanging on liddat when u noe u won't be able to get together wif him anyway?

Wad a waste of time...and I 'm sure..I hope I've grown stronger now and I'm prepared to forget all these shit. If we ever crossed our paths agan, it's up to fate to decide if we should be brought abt together or walked on our parallel bridges. As for the MSN, I may chat wif u again as I like and if I sensed tht u're not interested, then fine wif me, I'll leave u alone as u wished, I won't force u. Right now, I do feel abit of loniness in my heart after blurting out all these things...maybe It's really time for me to look for another new 'target' hahahahaha....

I told myself tht let's leave this all to fate and who noes? I may find my mr right soon and who noes? He may be the one I already knew! So to conclude on my draggy story, certain memories, even though once sweet, were meant to be trashed away if it hurts u more than u valued them...so why keep? And let's embrace to a new love if it should ever comes...haha...wad if I'm ever going to be an old mate? touch wood! and hopefully not? Anyway, watever, leave to fate to decide..Oh..god!

Boosting my brain cell yet kiling them...

I find myself getting more and more dumb and my mum getting more and more smart...I was the one who teach her how to play Sudoku first..and I can consider myseld an amateur at it...but now, I'm doing and thinking much slower than my mum!

Although I played Sudoku at work to boost my brain cells to ge them working, I may have overkilled them...and now I feel so tired and sleepy..Am I going to die? Haha..if I wanna die..I think I'll die peacefully after all my brain cells been killed...heeheehee...No!!! I have so many unfulfilled (sp correct?) wishes..I haven't slim down to my satisfied body figure..but now I keep gaining weight..really gonna be a pig le...

I was shocked when I weigh myself and found the most lightning discovery..I GAINED 2KG! All bcos of working at ST..I'm the lady boss there mah..eat alot haha..ShuTing Electronics Co. Walau..wat's happening to me man? Not only I gained weight, I'm also losing a few strands of hair, and despite tht I did 200 star jumps at home after work...(can only do 200 then go bathe cos not enough time)..I'm still gaining weight.

Am I going to be a pig? But I told myself tht if I've become a pig, I should be like myolie wu tht must slim down at an incredible speed! ~Sigh...my flabby arms keep swinging from the east to the west and revolutes around the world...just one serious warning
--> DON'T GET SLAPPED BY MY FLABBY ARMS...OR ELSE, U"LL HAVE TO GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY!!!

In a war of illusion, u only see wad u feel...

Yesterday i had a weird dream...I've dreamt of my MIT 0413 classmates and guess wad? We 're all going to volunteer to donate our blood at the blood donation centre. When one of them I think is kat asked me whether I'm going to donate my blood or not, I gave her a straight "yes"...as if I'm not afraid of pain at all...Then off we go to the blood donation centre..It looked like a normal clinic to me until we went inside....

Inside it had a normal customer/registration counter and after we all registered to donate our blood, we're ushered into a room...very deadly cold room...OMG..I can't believe what I saw in my dream...tht waiting room is full of human brains and organs! But I don rem seeing any full dead body leh...

Wah...haha I don think I freak out in my dream for tht moment...maybe I'm bolder in my dream than in reality...hee... but all my frenz too are all very calm and weird..then off one by one after they donated their blood..I rem dreaming of Nadhirah too..I asked her how was it? Painful or not? She replied that it was a bit painful but her face was ghastly pale white! Did I just see a ghost?! (sorry Nadhirah, but tht's wad I really dreamt abt u...maybe u had an excessive lost of blood!)...

Well I was the last one to go for the donation..weird tot I was going to be very calm and cool, not afraid at all but I suddenly scared of the blood donation..maybe cos all my fren just left the waiting room after donating their blood and I felt so lonely and lack of moral support in there...

Wah I didn't noe tht dream can be so vividly real...I can even smell in my dream! The waiting room smelled not of rotten dead body smell nor the fragrance of flower smell..it just felt like air conditioned smell and a mixture of hmm...(unable to describe) weird smell...then I decided to run away and not donating my blood anymore as though there were some sense of danger in there...

Then I think my dream like advanced abit...didn't dream in detail on how i escaped out of the donation centre but just tht there's a guy behind me trying to catch me...Oh..and why did the chasing scene suddenly moved to HDB flats? Hmm....maybe I missed my childhood too much tht I've dreamt of the mysteriously guy chasing behind me...playing catching huh?

yah..I ran around the HDB flats..up the stairs and down the stairs too..but he was like an athlete, can join for maralton le, keep in pace behind me..I was so scared and panicked tht I ran towards the lift...It was too late..he caught me and guess wad? WTF....he let me go! So my dream after all was a rubbish then? Why make me run in my dream like mad when tht guy wasn't going to kill me at all and yah..why make tht guy ran like a lunatic after me when in the end he wasn't going to do anything to me and just let me go?

And I supposed he was frm the blood donation centre and wanted to catch me as I escaped but I mean all these doesn't make sense at all?! I ran like hell in dream and sleep like a pig in reality...hmmm no wonder I everytime cannot slim down!

Well anyway, I always enjoyed my dream..be it a chasing game or a horror ghost or zombie jumping around u..running 4 ur life..I always treated all these dreams as my fantasies...really very fun man..I can even see the most beautiful scenery in my dream...a splendid grand city built in the middle of the sea without sinking and tht scene was when it was sunrise time...whoo!

And a funfair with a huge hot air ballon in the middle while the grass is like meadows... and horror one would be someone after my life but the good thing in this type of horror dream is tht I am always be able to escape frm them either by hiding or running...very fun trying to hide in the fashion shop and dressed up and act as the display statue into tricking them tht I wasn't there! haha...felt like it man!

Well, maybe not always escape lah..I rem once tht I was stabbed in the abdomen by the killer in the carpark but power man..I think I was a wonder woman tht despite being stabbed, I could still run away frm the carpark with the knife still poked in my tummy...haha..yah right...snapped out of it, Shuting!

Voicing out, happy sad...my business

Well, I'm not afraid if my fellow collegues hapen to see my blog....well wad is this blog here for is simply to voice out my feelings, I'm a human being, and I have feelings too...If I'm not happy with any of u all, I won't show it in front of u all but I'll write it here in my blog....So if any of u happened to read my blog...and if u're not happy or disagree with wad I've written abt any of u..let it be...u can't interfere with my tots and tht's wad I feel..u can't change anything....

However, I won't feel tht for the rest of my life..I'll only be unhappy wif tht particular day...so if u're petty enough to resent me....fine...tht's ur feeling and I can't do anything abt it. It's up to u to accept me, it's up to me to accept u to and it's up to us to improve the relationship...I'm willing to forget the past and start anew, are u all willing to do so? I'm not sure but I hope so...anyway...I'll try to forget abt all these unhappy thoughts....

Well...some things to brighten up my day:
1)(actually this was days ago when I came back home from work, I found a parcel on my bed, a very beautifully decorated parcel...I wondered who it was..(Haha..I won't even think abt secret admirer cos I noe there won't be since I look so ugly now with messy hair and pimpled face...) Well..answer disclosed! It was from one of the Japanese students that I've made when I attended the Japanese and NYP cultural Xchange.

Yukimi Amano was kind and cute enough to decorate the parcel til so nice and beautiful..it really attracts me..She sent some photographs of her family and her house is so huge and pretty! She even sent a photograp of a buddha statue saying tht the statue is to prevent plague and famine...and their beliefs at home....with the so called wishing dolls (I donno wad it is) for u to make a wish at home...

She folded a paper crane which i believe the japanese had believed in making paper crane for the others meaning best wishes for them. Oh yeah, she had sent a few neoprints of her and her frenz together ....kirei desu ne! totemo kawaii! I think she and Eri are good frenz since most of the neoprints are them together...So nice of her...but she wanted me to exchange neoprints with her leh...I seldom take one how arh? Maybe should go find my frenz go take some?

She had sent me her email too...it was a diff one frm the email tht she wrote to me on the first day...the first email cannot work one so I cannot sent email to her but now i can, yay! I'll post the pictures here when I had the time...Yesterday meet gia bao, the vietnamese guy to pass him the other parcel tht yukimi requested for me to pass to him as she donno his address...haha he's still the same lah...funny guy..hmm..his quite cute too..any takers? I can recommend u to him...hee..But somehow I cannot hear clearly wad he's saying though...maybe it's his accent or maybe it was my ear prob..mus go checkup liao...

Sad, didn't get a chance to go out wif maoling and sherlyn...we couldn't contact sherlyn cos her hp wif her bf, forgot to take back...then somemore the haze very thick, thick til I can't see my middle finger! (ok, old joke, not funny anymore....understood only by maoling and sherlyn)...and angie cannot make it! So we postpone it to next tym lor..hmmm I wonder when is this next tym going to be..

Yesterday my dad birthday, I wished him again and I didn't noe my bro got bought a present for him! I only noe until this morning when I saw my Dad got a new bag to replace his broken zip bag...how thoughtful...suddenly feel so ashamed of myself..wad kind of a daughter I am huh?! Hmm...next tym must make it very grand grand....haha..provided if I got enough money lah.now quite broke...charity to Cabomba community chest anyone?

Ok, I've written this essay long enough w/o any pics, it's damn boring to read( don hink anyone will read though but I've voiced out my feelings..now my heart only got one feeling le...EMPTY)...

Stop running, nose!

Arrgh! Today woke up at 6.45am, then feeling very unwell, my nose just keep running, luckily it's mucus not blood if not i would have been dead because of excessive loss of blood. Well, nevertheless, i still go to work today. I don't like to take mc, very sian at home and very expensive to take mc. No money lah...unless the government gives me the money lor...then i can take 365 days of mc...hehe :b Well now i keep listening to the same song-Biased love and just hope tht music and soothes my mind and soul and also helps to make me recover from illness.

Hmmm...hope i'll be fine by this weekend and hope this sun the weather is fine and kat and sherlyn and hopefully angeline and lianpai lah will be able to gather to go east coast again to roller blade! Yah! I donno how to roller blade and if i skate it, my legs will automatically go wider and wider..maybe my dream comes true, tht one day i'll be able to do split? yah...in the hospital bah...

Well, even if i noe how to skate, i won't be able to stop! So how leh? drag the others wif me when i'm falling down? get ang pao together liddat. You fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang mah...hahaha....don worry lah, i won't be tht selfish one lah and i'm not a fishmonger too so If i'm falling, maybe i'll get a flower tattoo on my butt! Not free of charge, maybe need the doctors help for the stitches though( wonder if they're up to the standard in stitching?)hmmmm....ah...touch wood!

crazy abt cantonese songs...download link below!

Today's life is simple and kinda bored if i can't play any games. Too bad can't MSN too and all i can do is to search for HK TVB's entertainment news, emails and wad else, listen to music lor...our new proj got problems then stuck half way...

Wah, Ron ng is so hot and cute! He's so tall, dark and cool look! I listen to music on the TVB's album "All about women" as the title says, the songs are all sung by women lor..very nice and sweet...haha it's bcos of this album tht i've downloaded from the net did i get to listen to Bernice's singing of the two songs.."Truth-sat ching" and "Break up-Fan sau". Great songs sung by her.

"Truth" was her first solo song and it was the theme song of the TVB series Into Thin Air...wow, alot of ppl didn't noe tht the song was sung by her and tht she could actually sing! Well, I also like the song "Biased love-pin oi" Sung by Kary ng and stephy tang...the best song tht i like.

Heard from the TVB forum tht this song was actually the sub theme for the TVB series "Love Bond" tht Bernice and moses acted in, but the sub theme was sung by moses, bernice, kenix and micheal and the lyrics were different though the rhythm was the same. Really very nice!

Of course, still got another song-"Don't blame him-Bit Guaai ta" sung by Vivien yeo, the female version of the sond "Don't Blame her" by ron ng. All so nice! First time I'm so obsessed with Cantonese, wanted to learn it, all thanks to Bernice tht brought interest to me on cantonese, cos I admired her diligence in learning cantonese from not knowing a ingle chinese word, let alone cantonese to now be able to speak fluently and joke about in cantonese!

Power! She's not only my idol but more of a role model for me to learn frm her..so talented, a university student in Canada with such a charming bright and sunny smile tht lit up her whole face even if she looked tired. Maybe one time I should post up her photo with the best smile. This is a link to download the "All About women" Album songs:
http://www.virtuesofharmony.net/blog/2006/06/spotlight-lady-in-red-cd_05.html

Be sure to go there and download the recommended songs: Truth, Break up, Woman With A Past,Let It Flow, Swear, Biased Love, Don't Blame Him,Fortunately

U don't really need the username and password, just right click on the links and click "Save as.." then tada, u got the songs! Trust me, u won't regret hearing these songs! Oh..ya i think the best singer in this album is myolie wu..she got such a feminine(sp correct?) and powerful nice voice though I don't really much like her song fortunately but it's passable to listen to when u're down.

The second would be Bernice liu then vivien yeo then mariam yeung..hmm linda chung not bad..All of them can sing! The songs tht i don really like in this album are Repeat Bar by Bar and Lover on Golden Sand. But Repeat Bar by Bar i think still can pass but the Lover on Golden Sand hmm...not tht Chermaine didn't sang well, just tht I don like the tune, so weird! Don believe? Go click on the link and download lor...love the Biased Love! :)

Hee hee, today's topic revolves mainly around on these cantonese songs...man, I love it! Hope u would donload them and listen, who noes? U may even be like me, frm don like cantonese to a craze fan of cantonese! I love TVB!

Massaging my sore buttocks...

Haha, yesterday was a great day wif Sherlyn and Katz at the East Coast park. Maybe god has eyes and the haze was a sharp contrast compared to sat night when the PSI reading was 150! So high! then yesterday was like only 35 liddat. So good! no wonder alot of ppl at the east coast there!

We cycled for 2 hrs...kewl, didn't noe tht we actually cycled for more than 14 km...tht's wad sherlyn said. Wah...didn't noe sherlyn was such a good liar too...hehehe...(just joking lah sherlyn but u really bluff me off). U noe wad she did? she asked us to cycle to one end of the east coast and it was very far..after cycled for abt 30 min, i asked when will we meet the end? she said it's very near le, another 5 min more...wah i can guarantee u her 5 min means 50 min! no lah..not tht exaggerating lah...15min better..then we finally reach the end, we took some pics and posed beside the bicycles..cool man!

Then we cycled back..wah i can feel my butt burning by then..don noe got bleed or not...very 'sour' lah, feel like massaging my butt! We had our dinner at the MAC cafe. I tot this was the end of our journey when I started to worship my two hyperactive frenz...they're not done! They still wanna go to the vivoCity there see see, smell smell, shop shop! So we all went to harbourfront there...

It was an eye opening 4 me! Wah so grand, even the floor was glittering...my eyes can go blind if stared at it for long. It was really splendid..the outside view was even better...feeling very romantic...the structure was like a cruise ship u noe like Titanic then u can stand on the deck with ur arms spread out and sings "I'm flying w/o wings" Cool man! too bad a lot of shops still not open yet...then we spotted a really very cute and handsome guy at the Tangs there...haha damn funny tht Katz wanna ask for his no.then in the end she didn't..all very pai seh but kaz said tht she actually dare one...,maybe next wk we go there see tht guy again lar...wad's the rush?! hahahaha!

C'mon, snap out of it!

yeah...yesterday didn't get to blog..very sian, nothing to write abt...our flash proj just put aside and b4 we could cont, we must make flash integrates with asp to database first. so, we'll all be focusing on the asp right now...and gosh! though the concept is simple, the codings are hard and difficult to understand!

Okok, enough abt my IAP work le. Oh my good good sherlyn wanted to organise an outdoor activity at east coast park. I think most probably, Katrin, me and her together bah...I hope this event really takes place on sun and won't it be nice to go out wif them? three of us, all the siow gals! angie didn't reply leh...donno whether she wanna go or not but nvm lah...we can always meet out again mah. really can't wait to meet them...

lol Katz suggested tht we had a simple picnic there and then we go cycling or play ball, don care whether kick, throw, bounce, punch or slap the ball also can lah...so long as we had our fun but one prob...who's gonna bring a ball there? hmmm maybe in the end we just had a picnic or cycle lor..but pray pray the weather will be good! God bless!

Really miss my old frenz alot!!! How i wish i could go out with them often for any outdoor activities like canoeing or soccer at the beach? how good!!!!!!!!!!! All right, hope i'm not having a sweet dream...like the title says, I should face the reality that I'm drifting apart frm my old frenz but nv will i forget them...they lies deeply in my heart!

It's just tht all of us are so busy and with so little spare time to enjoy the sweet moments together...really hope tht all of y frez can meet out one day...Miss all of ya! Best wishes and regards and good luck to watevder all of u are doing! <3 :)

I keep pinching myself...

Well, this is the second time i'm typing all these cos fuck, the server down..sorry for my vulgarism, i'm in a bad mood today...Actually, no matter how happy i tried, i'll nv be tht happy if i'm in IAP cos i still can't fully bond wif my prog grp ppl...I'll try to bond with them again..

hmm wad did I do tht was so bad in the first place? Maybe i should do some self entertainment, yah...maybe i should work in a circus where i work as a clown! Yah, tht's right, i could make ppl laugh without them complaining too much!

Suddenly miss my sec sch fren, my old MIT 0413 fren( the siow siow class where all the lame ppl gather together! ?Yah, so lame, so good! Can stay happy wif them forever!) and some other fren...Ooh...i still rem tht time when most of the MIT 0413 classmates went for the BBQ tht katz had organized, wow, though we don have much activities but we had alot of fun together~ it's the first time i didn't slp for all day long and the whole night, we chatted, tok abt ghosts and playing cards.

HAHA...with Ihsan around, it's so much fun....i really laugh my head off! he's such a good entertainer..maybe he deserves better to be a clown in a circus than me...sorry ihsan, don mean to joke abt u but really, u're a real funny good guy..Hmm..if my life is full of all these funny lammy crappy entertaining ppl...i think i would have been able to live for a thousand yrs, provided they live long enough too...

hehehe....ya, living in my own dream world again...I hope to have another BBQ again wif all my frenz! I love outdoor activities but hardly can get anyone to accompany me cos they're all too busy...lonely x( Maybe it's time to seriously thinking abt getting a bf lah but taking a peek at my looks, i think it's hard to get one..haha so who wanna be my bf?

Not really tht desperate bah?! hehe...I think there's no applicants haha! must really change my looks b4 getting one? hmmm....see again lor..if in the end still old virgin, i think it's too old for me to become a lesbian le than i shall be a narcist(spelling correct?) zi lian kuang le...hahahahaha!!!!!

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Hmmm...wad to say? I don intend to come here to blog one, just tht i'm so bored tht i just blog lor..then found out tht i had nothing to write...hahaha. Nah, i'm sure u r sick to hear me saying the same thing over and over again...Today is so SIAN! wah, thinking still got 2 more months to go then i sian liao. one month is like so difficult to pass...luckily i still got to listen to VOH songs! wat now? just pass my day liddat, doing nothing much. heard frm Kai yan tht last batch of attachment students for the prog department, they don have a major proj to do like i have, and they just pass their day liddat, doing nothing!!! it's like wtf!!! I wanna be like them but then it would be so sian! then thinking tht now, at least i get to learn smthg, hmm at least tht's not so bad lah....well my proj involves a lot of technologies...XML, CSS, Flash with actionscript, ASP..wat comes next? Now i have a broader view on flash prog since i've learnt some techniques of flash frm my fellow attachment students in my department. well, let's see if tmr i have anything more to write lor..hahahaha, tmr then!

Gaining Weight, losing hair x(

Ever since i got into attachment at ST Electronics, i found myself with some phenomenon crisis...tht's is Gaining weight and losing hair!!! No!!!!! I don wan to be a pig neither do i want to become a hairless pig!!! haha..maybe i should go to Yunnam hair care, Beijing 101, nanjing 808, shanghai hair care or singapore hair care, watever to save my hair...hahahaha....maybe i'm a bit stressed? cos i find myself having more skin allergies lately..hmmm maybe should consult a doctor le...haiz...shouldn't stress so much bah...i don think i'm stress lah cos i spent my wkends playing games all day...hmmm a waste of time but imagine tht i can't play during work, why not good good cherish my wkends into playing?! heeheehee...again, my wkend ends so fast! hmm now at work again and i'm having mon blue as usual...

One month Pessimistic

ok...how should i phrase it? Should i say:" Wow! One month le! Finally!" or should i say:"Still got 2 more months to go...", which one is better? Well for a pessimistic me now, i would choose the second option. Yah...though a month finalllly passed for my IAP, i would still think abt there's still got 2 more months to go! Hey clock, can't u tick faster?! hahaha(sad laugh) Today clock ticks damn slow..oops, luckily i found the spelling error just now, the "clock" i accidentally spelled it without a "l", wah wait later ppl tot i'm writing a porn article or wad, lucky i got check again! Holy shit, now damn sleepy yet i can't sleep! not tht they will find out tht i'm slping just tht though i'm sleepy, my mind just wouldn't let my eyes closed! wth! hmmm...now listening to Virtue of harmony casts singing all those happy songs...i think it's for new yr one cos sounds like it..very funny comilation of the songs..got two songs i like: 1)Love has to be happy(Sung By bondy chiu and micheal tse) and 2)Fighting enemies(sung by Frankie lam and Bernice liu). Then the funny songs:1)Sister, You are good(sung by Nancy sit and louie yuen) and 2)Everyone laughs(Virtues of harmony)(sung by most of the casts of virtue of harmony)..so if i'm sad or wad, i'll listen to these funny songs..really will brighten up my day a bit. if u want the songs, can tell me, i'll give to u...haha don think anyone would even come here and read these posts..anyway, this blog is just a place for me to place my thoughts(happy,sad,resentment,remorsefulness,everything!)..don care whether ppl got come and read my post or not...haha but i welcomed anyone to come here and read it! i'm not biased against anyone..i'm a peaceful person ya! Hope i can change frm :( to my usual self --> :)

Going to one month tmr!

hmmm...heard frm my fren tht the IAP money been credited to the account le...maybe should go and check..this news has two significance: 1)I had money le! 2)One month finally passed!
If i could turn the hands of the clock, i would always turn it to the end of the month..got money and another working month had passed! how good....yah, dream on!

It's always the same lamentation again: VERY SIANNNNNN!!!!! I keep on listening to bernice liu's truth(sat ching) and Breakup(fan sau) cos they're really very nice and enchanting...Because of these 2 songs, she becomes my idol le...haha like very easy to become my idol liddat..but bcos she's quite nice and outgoing and she likes to joke alot (I like funny ppl, patricia mok too) and she has one of the world's most beautiful smile, unique! Tht's y i like her! but i still haven't forgotten abt ayumi hamasaki.. and ron ng, will be my male idol but not as idolised as bernice and ayu..i like him bcos he's very 'suai' not the unlucky 'suai' but very handsome de 'suai'. So cute lah he!

haha! of course, i got listen to other songs lah but still prefer truth and breakup...didn't noe bernice had such a powerful and nice voice and i didn't ne tht she can sing! TVB made the right choice into letting her sing the theme song of the series Into Thin Air...okok, enough abt bernice, oh yah, if u're wondering how funny she can be, go to Youtube, search 4 her name: Bernice liu and most of the video tht she is in, she likes to joke..for example, the Healing hands 3 casts including her are to donate blood, she said the doctor told her not to be nervous but she's still very nervous, then she said wad...being nervous is even better, let the heart bonbonbonbon, pumps the blood faster, better blood circulation!

Brushing up my writing skills...

Nowadays, i was like very 'eng', cos i donno wad to do le...all the methods tried out also got errors, then the proj is not even 30% completed...my supervisor also very busy for these few days..and wad i could do is to play some games on sudoku, then read the flash prog book loh...which again took me a long long time to finish one chapter.

very sian lah...imagine, it's not yet one month! still got 2 more days to become 1 month at IAP...wah...hw to cont for another 2 months when i cannot even 'tahan' one month? luckily i still can listen to music, play games, but with caution...wah, took a look at my fellow collegues' report..wah, can't believe they got power hands to type so much when there's nothing much to write for just a single day...hmmm..maybe i should follow their styles and apply my social studies writing skills to it le....who noes? i may become an infamous journalists! and won the top for the longest most elaborated bullshit report i've ever written!!!! hahahaha!

Reading disorder?

OMG! i can't believe i have reading difficulties....I just can't seem to read well...i mean i understand the word and what it is writing about but imagine, using 2 hrs just to finish reading ONE chapter! and tht one chapter is not very thick.

Since pri sch, i've found myself reading very slow..slower than the other kids...Rem when i was having my English exam when there's a part where it had the comprehension, i took like eh...i think 15 min or more to finish reading while the other students already started doing! Luckily, i was able to finish on time...

I think i'm still normal lah..cos I still can read and understand better than those unfortunate kids who can't even read at all...or maybe it's because i don have much interest or i'm easily distracted, but i'll try my best to improve my reading habits...hmmm now i haven't finish reading tht chapter yet...haha just now said finished reading le, actually not, still got a few more pages.. x( makes me really feeling very sleepy so comes here and blog to prevent myself frm falling asleep! heeheehee...hahaha..hohoho...kekeke...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Siao gal...here.

Ice broken? Not yet...

Wah...my weekend really very week end, the week ends so fast and my wkend also end very fast...it's always liddat...when u're working, the time passed so slow, then when u're playing, the time flies...(did i said this b4? i think i've said it b4 too..nvm..) Today morning went to work then see my one of my fellow collegue there. surprisingly, we chatted with no hostile and we exchanged smiles...i was so happy, i think i'm a circle person as said in comm skills bah..cos i would rather made more frenz than enemies and i love harmony. really brighten up my day abit even though the rain dampens my spirits on the first day of wk...very heavy rain...sian...and hope the ice is broken...i don like to be given cold ice, i like warm. so i try my best to bond wif them again...


After a few hrs, i still think there's still a gap between me and my department's fellow collegues. weird, i can bond well wif Kai yan and katherine in the other department leh..why not in my own one? or is it because their personality and mine like ba zi bu he? hahaha...if this cont, i may get depression de...god help me! Hmmm...pls pls let the time goes faster for this 3 months IAP...Still got 2 months and a wk more to go! Ganmansuru and ganbarimasu!!

Sat my favorite day

Oh yeah! today is sat, don need to work! I must make full use of my wkend to...PLAY! hahahahahaha! cos at work cannot play..then very sian! haiz~ everday like really being confined to a cell in prison...the food there also sux....i think i've said this a thousand times already...
I donno why hor..my wkend like very fast end one then my wkdays esp when i need to work the time will pass like old granny walking liddat, damn slow...still got 2 months 1 wk more!!!!! GOD PLS HELP ME!!!!!!

oh right! Friday again!

Yesh! Another Fri le! quick quick, still got one more wk to become one month! Today is just as usual, doing the flash...walau, damn sucky one, hw come i tried all ways also not working! Then in the end i have to sent an email to the web master for SOS! hahaha! I think now they wanna try to resolve the prob by using Flash and javascript integration! Haiz~ enough of the work stuff...very boring here...I cannot play games here cos i was seated at a very unfavorable position where ppl can see frm behind wat i was doing lo...then the network sucks also..cannot go messenger chat and smtimes the network would like slow down then i ave to do a ipconfig/flushdns and then a ipconfig/renew.....maybe i would do a ipconfig/release first b4 i renew. hahaha...all the networking stuffs again...hmmm prog is not my forte but i'll try to improve and hope to learn smthing new here. Jya mata!

one more week to go b4 a month really passed!