To think that I would look up to him as a role model in the past....it makes me feels so idiotic to think of that, and truely very ashamed of myself to have such a thinking...he wasn't a bad person in the past but looked at wad happened to him now->so full of himself and thinking our family sucks that he wanna the whole family to change without thinking that he's the one who should change!
Who's the one that recently been cooping up inside his own room donno doing wad, with his doors closed and locked for the whole day, only came out to find food to eat like a pig or more likely a leecher? Who's the one that often hurts mum's feeling for not eating her cooking cos it's not suiting his those "fantasy king" taste? He's like want to live as a king, wanna eat good food, always wasting money to go down and buy those unnecessary food without thinking his own status now->no income contribution to the family! Though I also no contribution at all but I won't waste money anyhow..and I don think in the future, he's going to treat my parents well, I'm not counting on him to take care of them either, that's why sometimes, whenever I'm very very sad to the state of a cowardly suicide thinking, I would think of my parents and I was thinking that I shall not die, wad will happen to them in the future if my bro continues to be this WAY? Yes, I know I make myself sounds like so noble but in fact I'm not when I'm in this situation where I couldn't even get to talk to my brother with at least 10 words a day!
If my brother has any girlfriend at all, i would feel sorry for the girl unless he changed for the better. Yah, my bro would say that which guy would like a tomboy ugly looking me, who's so lazy to go down and exercise and be a pig and a nerd at home doing nothing at all? But well, I dare to say 100% that my personality currently is much much far off better than him! I said this not because of my 5cm skin, but because it's the truth right now. He even think that helping to do some household chores is not wad a man should do, omg, wad big ego, self centered, 30's thinking! If he thinks that doing household chores are very sissy, well, he can as well better be a eunuch for doing NOTHING! Yes, bro, if u happen to know this blog and happen to see this post, I don care, u can confront me, hit me but don think I'm not gonna retaliate! I don care if u're not gonna talk to me anymore or acknowledge me as ur sis, but well, it's not as if I want u to be my brother that much, watever happens to you, unless you change, I will still dislike you as much as you dislike me, asshole!
